Being set apart for God

I just dropped my Bible. I hope that's ok.

The Lord has been speaking to me and leading me to scriptures lately that

have to do with consecration and being set apart from the world.

I'm mostly writing this down and typing it out for my own mind.

I want to always remember the revelation that the Lord gives to me.

Joshua 7:12-13

"That is why the Israelites can not stand against their enemies; they turn their backs and run because they have been made liable to destruction. I will not be with you anymore unless you destroy whatever among you is devoted to destruction.

Go, consecrate the people. Tell them, 'consecrate yourselves in preparation for tomorrow, for this is what the Lord, God of Israel says: That which is devoted among you, o Israel you can not stand against your enemies unless you remove it."

What I got from that verse was how important it is to be separate from things in your life that you KNOW are holding you back and are not of God. We are in a war, and if we are fighting on both sides, how are we to win? 

losing weight

If you would have asked me last year if I wanted to lose weight, my response would have been something like this; "If you don't like me the way I am screw you, and if some man doesn't like me like this then he's too shallow for me anyway and I am totally already mad at men who will like me if I lose weight, because who do they think they are only liking me when I'm skinny, this sucks I dont want to...but I do want to lose weight."

Notice the run-on sentence for effect.
Actually, it's not for effect. I tend to write really long run on sentences and not notice.

Now I am about 40 days into a 100 day challenge with my sister and 2 women named erin.
It's biggest loser style, body weight percentage will be counted at the big weigh in and the winner gets a new bathing suit. Of course it will be bought by the losers. Do I call them losers? I guess we all will be losers.

This challenge is bringing up things in me that are unexpected. Like my bitterness toward the thought of me being a healthy weight. The independent do-whatever-i-want woman in me rises and I start to eat more of the things I told myself I wouldn't just because I can.

I haven't lost a pound.

Am I the only one that rebels against herself for no reason?
Why am I doing this?
This has been a cycle for me my whole life! I'm 25 now, and I haven't EVER taken time to be consistent and that goes for everything, not just weight loss.

I want to lose weight for lots of reasons. In fact here's a list;
1. I want to breakdance
2.I want to wear dresses and not have to wear spandex under them.
3. I want to be able to climb a mountain
4. I want to not feel like I'm "sitting in fat" when I'm in a car or small place. (that one is weird I know)
5. I want to run at a moments notice and not be red for like an hour.
6. I want to wear non-stretch jeans
7. I don't want to be looked at as the "big, but pretty" girl anymore
8. (this one's a shocker) I want to look normal.

For those of you who know me, looking "normal" has never been in my vocabulary.
I just think it'd be nice to wear a white t-shirt and jeans....go into public and not be stared at.

I guess these are just some things that are bugging me, there's no revelation here really.
Getting them down makes it a little more obvious though. I can see the problem now, and I can solve it.
Consistency is the answer.
Now to do it.
here we go, In Jesus name, AMEN